Hurt -> Anger -> Peace: Which do you Choose?

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The Women of Faith Conference….to me, embodied the ability to find peace.  Peace within me.

Sheila Walsh posed a question on stage…..one that cut deep, I think into…everyone.

The question that….hinders all from finding peace in Christ….What if the trouble is in me?

And you know what…for all of us…the hard truth….is that…

IT IS

and then, Nicole Johnson…you know her, the witty.one.who.gets.on.stage.and.makes.it.all.funny.and.real.and.tells.it.like.it.is.about.being.invisible.

She stands up there and shares her story….I won’t share it, it’s not mine to tell…neither is Sheila’s.  But their stories are REAL.

They are REAL and they have written about them in their books…..

and they speak of hurt and pain…and oh, dare I say it…ANGER

It’s all around us…mothers…are….angry.

CHRISTIAN MOTHERS ARE ANGRY!

WHY?

Because we have not told God the truth.  We think we can hide it from him.  We think we can put on our smiles, put up with the day to day stuff….and when our friends…ask “How are you”…we think we are supposed to smile and say…”OH, I’m doing great!  How are you?”

But, then I’m reminded…of Steve Arterburn…he said, most of us are really living in a state of Disconnected Isolation.

Me…I sit there, soaking it in.

Then, Nicole Johnson….takes out these pretty little shoes…and she says that in her state of anger, her counselor tells her to find where it hurts…and that is where the anger comes from.

She found it, she found that hurt.

Me….I wonder, this mama…this mama who watched hers rage, watched the drink, saw her brother buried, left alone during those tender years…, married and divorced by 20, this mama who opened her heart again…her own sins, her own hurts caused by her own sins…that baby, the one this mama didn’t hold,….and more death, more sickness…my own pain, deep within my body that never ceases…

YET….why do I think I have the right to hurt or be angry.  but, i have been.

and i decided, it was time to go before the cross…and I told him.  I told him the secrets locked in my heart.  i finally told him, i was angry…i was hurt….

i looked around me.

tear stain cheeks

because Angie…her baby born, her Audrey, her story…you read it….it’s hers to tell, not mine…

I have my own

and so do you

and He knows what it is

He wrote it before time

because He loves you

and we are all broken

but, we can find peace, when we bury his word in our heart.

So, here it is…i lay it down

the hurt(s)

it’s nothing compared to what he did

he sent his son to die for me

me….never in a million years could i do that

but he did

he can handle our pain and our anger

our families can not

This week, I have walked in peace I have not felt in years.  As he opened my eyes to sins I forgot, I laid them down…I didn’t hide them.  I spoke with my husband about them…and you know what…he still loves me

So, is this a pity party?

No…this is me

laying them down

giving them to him and asking you to do the same.

As Angie said….Peter was in the boat….he had a choice in the midst of falling into the sea…look back to ‘man’ or look forward to the son of God!

these days on this earth will have pain

they will have joy

and now…PEACE!

This week, I have two seeds.  One, as a reminder that there is no condemnation in those who follow Christ, that it is only through him that we are saved and are promised eternity in Heaven…..and that he gives peace to those who seek it!

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.  I do not give to you as the world gives.  Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid John 14:27.

1 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death. 3 For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh,[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering. (Romans 8:1-3)


I always look forward to Wednesdays.  To spending time sharing seeds with you and my friend, Jennifer Janes.  She inspires me so much and I pray that God will bring us together one day…for a big hug!  If you are looking for inspiration on any day of the week, visit Jennifer, iFellowship, A Holy Experience, The Wednesday Word, (in)Courage….oh, there are many, many more…just surf around and find them!

 



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Comments

  1. Your posts always have a way of touching my heart and soul. I had tears in my eyes and goosebumps on my arms reading this.

    Feeling God’s forgiveness is an incredible feeling. And, I am not sure why, but sometimes it is harder to forgive ourselves. Someone once told me, “If He has forgiven you, who are you to hold onto it?”

    Thank you for your honesty, your compassion, your inspiration.

    Many blessings!!!!!
    Lisa
    http://our4kiddos.blogspot.com

    • Lisa, Thanks. Yes,I think we believe this lie that we shouldn’t forgive ourselves….because we hear those words…like Eve “did he really say….” and like her, we believe….and think we need to go out and do it all alone! Thanks for always being here, for sharing your comments. It’s been a busy week and I”ve not had any time to visit others. I am hoping to catch up some today and tomorrow!!!! HUGS!

  2. Great post! I would love to go to the Women of Faith conference! I bet it was amazing!

    • Tiffany, it was wonderful…they are still out on tour this year. I was blessed with two tickets from BookSneeze…that’s the only way I could go!!!! Thanks for dropping by!

  3. I choose peace with you! I am looking forward to the day He brings us together for a big hug too—and this post earns you an extra squeeze. Thank you for opening your heart to share that it’s time for us to let it go and give it to God. He’s big enough to handle it.

  4. Wow, Rebecca.

    I have no words, only gratitude.
    Thank you so much for sharing.

    Wow.

  5. Wow, so beautifully said! Thank you for sharing that peek into your heart. I love linking up with you and your awesome site! Thanks for hosting!

  6. Rebecca,

    Thank you for sharing! You have a way of writing that brings joy every time i read it. You are a blessing to me.

    • Alycia, your words….are so sweet. I write for my father…and it’s hard to share sometimes…the things he wants me to share….I’m wrestling with something right now…and need your prayers…another door he wants me to walk through and i”m kind of standing here like Moses….saying “UM…NO, Um, I , um, can’t, um talk….” Because I don’t think he’ll send my brother to help me!

  7. Robin, it’s hard putting ourselves out there and being afraid of judgement…rather than finding our value from God. He loves us so much and can handle the pain….and you…have inspired me in so many ways…Thank you!

  8. I’ve been working through the issue of finding peace myself, reading the book Made to Crave. Thanks for this heartfelt post. It helps.

    Stopping by from The Wednesday Word :)

    Hope you don’t mind that I linked up here as well!

    • Marcy, I have heard about that book, sounds really good! Thank you for dropping by and for linking up! We don’t have any rules….you don’t have to mention us or grab our button…we just want to encourage others to Christ!

  9. Stopping by to say hi from the crew blog hop!

  10. Thank you for your heart-felt words…He *can* handle our pain…if we surrender it to Him. And I am so excited to be going to WOF in a few weeks, a conference that always lifts me up and points me directly to Him. Blessings to you!

  11. I tried making my link go to my post from yesterday entitled “From the Rising of the Sun”. Appreciated your post. We all have struggles. It’s doing the right thing with them–leaving them at Jesus feet. The post I tried to link to was http://tashales.blogspot.com/2011/08/from-rising-of-sun.html

    • Natasha, I saw your link went to your home page and i just followed it down to the one you were trying to link. Not sure what happened…if you received an error message, email me through my email link and let me know…. Your post was beautiful…Thank you!

  12. Thank you for your transparency in sharing your own brokeness. We are all broken in some way. It’s His grace that puts us back together in a new and better way. Thanks for sharing!

  13. I love the honesty of your post….and the question…why are christian mothers angry? I fit that description for too many years…but God is faithful…He heals…He leads us on the path of forgiveness. So thankful…His mercies are new every morning.
    Blessings~
    ro

    • I think….many of us do…and I was thankful to hear these words spoken at the Women of Faith conference.

      Thank you for stopping by and leaving a comment!

  14. Oh, sweet friend – how did I miss this post? So sweet….so wonderful and raw. My heart goes out to you!

    One thing that REALLY struck me from WoF, that REALLY spoke to me (and let me say, I was in tears for almost the whole day) was when Sheila Walsh said – “The Shepherd knows where to find you.” Oh my goodness, I still get goosebumps and tears in my eyes when I think of that. He knows, friend.

    So glad you’re laying down everything before him….