They race, non stop. It’s a race to see who can win – who can be the best, the toughest, loudest, smelliest, dirtiest…..
It’s not a race I was expecting as a Mom. My quiet home as a child, nothing like the home I am growing in now. Mmy brothers, they were 7 and 9 years older than me. The oldest, left this world and moved to the next – the life we all dream of when he was 14.
That left me and my brother. But, he is 7 years older.
For me the race was to catch up with him. But, it wasn’t a race – it was something I wanted just for a relationship, a close bond with a sibling…
and now, they race
The two boys. I never imagined how quickly it would begin, how loud it could be-how.loud.to.a.mommas.ears.
And its beautiful watching the camaraderie of brothers, racing together, growing together.
I wonder, as I sit and watch, will they race for the true prize.
As they run for their Father’s hugs, will they run and race to the Father who created them.
I pray for that.
As I tuck them in after a race to see who can brush their teeth the fastest, who can be the first up the stairs and into the bed.
I realize, this is my favorite moment. The moment where I can share, love and guide them to the Father. Where I can run the race and help them see, no day is complete, without running it for him.
The world may tell them how great they are, how wonderful they can be, how their moments count for others and how they need to spend each and every one for the benefit of others-but if they are not grounded in His truth, when troubled times come (and they will come) – if they are not running the race for him, despair and hurt will follow.
I catch my breath.do.i.really.display.that.for.them – when others hurt and share the hurt and selfishness of the world…when they use, when they don’t shine his light and instead take and take……
but, that’s for another day.
In the end, I must ask myself
Am I running the race in front of them? Am I shepherding their hearts, sharing his love, living in the freedom that can only be found in a relationship with him?