The days and weeks of growing into the light can be painful. But they can also be beautiful.
As I sit and ponder the night our savior prayed in the garden, I can’t help but be overwhelmed with sorrow. What it must have been like to be in the flesh, but with a mind that knew what was going to happen. The blood flowed through his pores and his heart cried out.
He prayed. He asked his closest friends to pray with him. They could not stay awake.
After he was captured, they ran and one denied him.
He willingly took the blows and allowed his mortal body to be nailed on the cross.
He took on my sins – and all he asks is that I repent and allow Him to change me into the person he created me to be.
I pray that each day, my answers are filled with more ‘yes’ than ‘no’. That I learn more and more to die to my own sinful desire – my own selfish and innate being that desires more of me and less of him.
As I sit, pray and pour over the word, the more I feel his love pouring over me. And the more I desire that yes to be yes and to know that my flesh is changing along with this part of me that I can’t see. This part that is not here – it’s longing for home because this isn’t home.
While I am here, I have a job to do. It’s a ministry at my finger tips. These \three beautiful children – they are blessings and it’s an honor to be their mother.
This motherhood thing – I’ve said it’s hard. What’s hard about it – is that I have to die to me – to be like him. The more I do that, the more light I see in their eyes and the more peace I have in my heart.
And being a wife, the more I follow and pray for my husband to lead – the more he leads, the more of a man he is. The more of a woman I become and a better mother and wife…. I see I am being.
Being – a wife and a mom
It takes a lot of “DO I” questions with honest answers…..
So, I’m sitting at the cross with my babes. It’s not the bunny or eggs, it’s the Savior we’re discussing. We are shedding more of the world and taking on more of eternity…..and all the blessings that are bestowed upon the family who does.
Peace – it’s reigning here….
Sit with us and tell me – what do you see and ask when you sit at the cross?